{Fic} The Plan

Title: The Plan

Pairing: Subaru/Yasu

Rating: PG

Warnings: None

Summary: Yasu starts planning something for Subaru's birthday, but Subaru wants nothing to do with it.

Notes: Just a little fic for these two guys' birthday. It's a bit late, but I was so close to getting it done on time. Anyway, hope it's alright~.

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A/N: Ah, I set a date to get something done and I was so close to getting it done! If I didn't have to get up early I would have gotten it done on time but, hell, I never finish anything like this without a date so I'm satisfied! I just hope it turned out alrght since I finished this so quickly.

Six Years in a Fandom

It doesn't feel like six years. Really. How has time flown by so quickly? I mean 2010 was just yesterday, wasn't it? And suddenly it's 2016...I'm not sure how to feel about that haha.
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I really, really, really love being a fan of K8. Even after 6 years they still make me laugh. They keep coming out with music I can listen to over and over. K8 is the first group I've been an actual 'fan' of for so long. The one group I know most about. The people in the fandom are always so sarcastic and funny towards them. That's why I love this fandom so much~!

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So, a few years ago, like 2013 perhaps? I had this problem where I was getting really worried about things and I said the cause was from me being sick and being on so many different medicines and one of the side affects was 'nervousness'. Well I got over it and rarely had those feelings again after that until two weeks ago when I started getting sick. The first week was fine, just coughing and stuffy nose business, but when Sunday rolled around I started having those nervous feelings again, and I spent a week stuffed up with sinus issues (and I'm assuming I have a sinus infection right now, but it's clearing up and today I can actually breath pretty well haha).

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{Fic} Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

Title: Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder
Warnings: None
Summary: Ohno receives a call that Nino was back in town after being away for years. The two haven’t changed at all, but their relationship is not the same as it was before.
Notes: I’ve written Arashi/Ohmiya only a couple times before, so I hope it’s alright~. Because of that it was a bit of a challenge to write, but it was fun.
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{Fic} {One-Shot} Make It Worth It

Title: Make It Worth It
Pairing: Ryo/Tacchon
Rating: PG-15
Warnings: Some language, mild sex
Summary: Ryo has had enough of touring and being away from home and Tacchon for so long. He consideres quitting and throwing it all away, but Tacchon has a different idea.
Notes: AU. This wasn't my original idea for the fic, as I already had one nearly finished before starting completely over. This was much more enjoyable to write, so I hope it is good to read.

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A/N- I've had this idea for some time now, and I got it during my second semester writing class. I dropped the idea for a long time until the k8 fic exchange came up, and I was happy to write it. It was a lot of fun. I seem to be writing more Ryo/Ohkura lately. I wonder why? 

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For one, why is everything on LJ in Japanese for me?! What happened? I didn't change any settings...
Perhaps it's telling me to study more? Cause then it wouldn't be a problem?
It's interesting.

Second, I did.a fic exchange. Hot damn that was scary. It was hard because writing specifically for another person worries me. Will it be good enough? Is it what they wanted? I was so stressed. But I finished. Today is the day fics were due. I don't have a beta reader. Never used one. Don't know how to find one. D: So i sent it in to use the exchange beta reader, only to realize I left something out, and asked a question that was in an email. Good lord did I feel like a burden. I was glad when it was over and didn't have to worry about it.

So what did I do?

Signed up for another one :l. Ho hum. God dammit WHY DID I DO THAT?! Haha. I'm going to stay on track and not procrastinate. Then there won't be stress. I procrastinated too much last time and freaked out. Not tvis time!

I hope I get a K8 assignment. I also said Ohmiya, but... it's definitely hard for me to write Arashi, idk why. Uuuuugh. Lets see how things go.

Social Media

A couple times I have thought I was too obsessed with the groups I like, and need to back away. Take a break, chill out, just not deal with them. Because this weird feeling would form and for whatever reason I attributed it to the groups I enjoy listening to and watching and keeping up with. It made me sad to think of taking a break and missing out.

The more I thought about it though, the more I realized I don't think that's it. My life is not totally consumed by those groups. I listen to a lot of different music, switching between groups, and English and Japanese ones. It's always on shuffle. I have many different interests that I partake in, and actually fandoms takes up just one small part of that, I think. There are many bits that make up the things I enjoy, one not more important than the other. I make time to do each one, if there is time. I would love to have time to watch dramas and variety shows, but I don't feel a compulsion to force time in. If it's forced it's not enjoyable. And I want to be able to enjoy what I'm watching or listening to. I don't watch my concert DVDs or dramas as often as I used to since I also share my viewing time with other shows and movies. When the mood hits, I watch. I have so many things I want to put my power into, many things I want to do. All this being said, it's not the groups I enjoy that is the cause.

I believe it's social media. The need, compulsion, to update, be current, see if others update. The need to be connected to these things and check and check and check. Some of these do include things related to fandom, but it's not exclusive. Like I said, I don't understand why I related it directly to the groups right away. Sometimes I feel like I must check these sites, post something, like something, contribute in some way. When it's like that, it's not fun. It's forced. I'm not saying I dislike social media all together- far from! I love going on places like Tumblr and surfing around tags and my dashboard reblogging stuff and posting my own things. And I enjoy posting here and checking up. Twitter is still a mystery to me but I still find it interesting. Facebook is a whole different entity in and of itself. These and a handful of other sites I just visit and go through. But sometimes I just don't want much to do with it for a few days. Social media takes up quite a bit of my time I could spend drawing or writing or making things like sculptures and paintings and even gifs sometimes. Huh. It's all about time management really.

Yes! That's it! I only have four hours after work to do whatever I want. Less after dinner and baths and such. And then there's lesson planning for work. After all that, I hop on a site, and time is gone, none left for other things. Thus, that feeling! I didn't think of that until I started typing this! Much of my time is spent surfing when that doesn't need to be the case. If I just manage my time better, set aside times (and time limits) to do these things, this could be gone.

Aaah. Yes. I'm sorry about posting things like this, but it's what's on my mind, and as I said before, it really makes me feel better. Even if it doesn't make much sense. And like in this post, I realized something. So, please excuse me.
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I turned 21 recently! I'm officially an adult!
Oh lord no, haha. I don't want to be an adult yet, haha.

Anyhow I had my first experience at a bar, two weekends in a row, getting pretty sloshed on my actual birthday (my big party was the Saturday after since my birthday fell on a Sunday -.-). The next weekend I was maybe a little more than tipsy, but that's it. I got home, put my relatives to bed, an proceeded to my room and popped the first 47 documentary disk in, thinking it would be different or trippy or something. I was sorely disappointed, haha. Perhaps it was because it was a documentary and not a concert (which is trippy in and of itself sometimes. I'm talking bout you, 8uppers Sukiyanen/Wahaha/etc remix) or I just didn't have enough to drink. All I could focus on was how big Subaru's head seemed the first part of the DVD....

But anyhow I don't feel much different being 21 except I have realized I really am not a kid or teenager anymore, and it's an odd feeling. It's great to be able to do so much, and yet you miss the ease of being young and having things done for you. And though I have some regrets of things I didn't do when I was younger, I'm fine where I'm at right now. I have a good job in the career I want to be in, I have friends, I have motivation to practice art, get fit, and try to become more fluent in Japanese. Yeah, things are okay and I'm content. My children from my school did a handprint poster for me that was super sweet and my co workers also made posters about being 21, so yes, life is good.

I'm pretty much a dork though, since I got so excited over getting pokéball themed bath bombs that give you a Pokémon figure when it's done fizzing. I just started playing the games and they're surprisingly fun (and yet I'm an adult). It's more about nostalgia than anything I think, since that was a moderate sized part of my childhood. More importantly, those bath bombs smelled awesome!

As a present to myself, I was going to order the collectors edition of ばしゃ馬さんとビッグマウス cause Yasu, y'know. I've wanted it for so long though I don't know much about it, and the set with 3 disks is kind of expensive, so I figured it would be good as my own personally gift to myself ( I don't think I've done that before...) but then... Kanjanizm tour came out and it was a battle between which I wanted more, and the concert won. Because I knew if I waited I wouldn't get the LE and I'd be angry with myself (like I was with the B edition of the cd. And Kioku/Kokoro Odoreba, which I screwed the order up for -.-) and so I decided to wait. Which lasted a good... Month? Until last night when I ordered the movie. Me and internet buying is dangerous. Good lord. I need to stop haha. But when Misono Universe comes out I'll have to get that too. That's unite a ways away though.

This turned into a long post about a few things, that don't mean too much haha. But sometimes it just feels good to write what I'm thinking and get it out where someone could potentially read it. It feels oddly good and puts my mind at ease somehow. So if you even read this far, thank you and I'm sorry for babbling!
Have a good day or night, wherever you are!
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{Fic} 流れ星 ~{Nagareboshi, Shooting Star}~

Title- 流れ星 ~{Nagareboshi, Shooting Star}~
Pairing- Sho/Aiba
Rating- PG
Genre- Angst
Word Length- 1069
Disclaimer- Totally fictional :)
Summary- Aiba had been oddly silent lately. It had been some time since any of them had seen him smile naturally, unforced for the camera.
Note- Based off the song 涙の流れ星 (Namida no Nagareboshi). I listened to it today and finished this in about an hour and a half. A short fic for a short song.

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I'm a worrier. Definitely. About the future. I'm all about the "what-ifs". I worry about the decisions I make, and the changes I make for the sake of 'happiness'. Not to say I am unhappy. I'm content. But I think about things like, right now, I'm unsatisfied, so if I change this, there is a chance I'll be happy. But only a chance. It could backfire and I could regret it and be totally unhappy. But life is all about chances and risks. You never know what will happen unless you take those chances and risks.

And, looking at the future with only what-ifs is no way to live. You'll never truely be happy if you keep wondering what may happen or what could happen. I want to live in the now and see where life, destiny, and fate bring me. But it's so hard not to wonder.

I'm in a deep mood after rewatching 1 Litre of Tears (drama) and Dakishimetai. Those two things got me to thinking moreso about this. Along with other things happening in life. Though I have said all of this, I wish i had answers to my what-ifs, so I would know if I'm making the right choices, but thats impossible and wont do much to make me happier, I'm sure. I just have to live as I am and see where it goes from here~.
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